If one had to divide my neighbourhood up into those groups who wield power, this could easily be done. See, my side of the street is run by a little group we’ll call the “Jets,” while the land across the street, where transit shack is, belongs to the “Sharks.”
And it's fiercely competitive. I mean, there’s nothing more than a street dividing those rabid beasts, and the meridian in the middle is like international waters--it belongs to whoever gets there first. And these guys were born on the street: lanky, broad shoulders, sharp eyes. They just take what they want--no begging for them.
So the other night, I’m walking from the ticket booth toward the transit shelter when I see three or four Jets, lounging on the meridian in their dark, dirty fur coats. They’re sneering, practically snarling in the direction of the four Sharks across the way. The Sharks throw their heads back, pacing uneasily, one eye on the enemy at all times. I reach the transit shelter, but continue to watch. It’s got that feeling of something that’s just gonna happen, you know?
And I’m right--suddenly I see the leader of the Sharks lunge past me and onto the meridian. He’s moving so fast he’s little more than a blur but I KNOW it’s him, because of his sandy fur coat, the tail lost in a fight long ago. Behind the leader follows his gang, just as fast, just as ferocious, teeth bared, wanting what is theirs. There is grappling, snarling, white teeth sinking into flesh, and inhuman yowls. From my distance I think I see blood in the snow.
And then it’s over, just as quickly as it began. A whimper or two and the Jets cross the traffic back to their turf, into the thick birch, out of sight. The Sharks stand panting in the territory that is now theirs. Proud and standing tall. For tonight.
This will all happen again, soon enough.
The ones who live at the metro station have it so posh compared to this; people feeding them, warm doorways. If I were a stray dog, that's where I'd be. Wouldn't want to lose a tail.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Everybody Really IS Talking About It
“So the United States has a new president!”
All my students want to discuss this, their belief being that I am close enough to American to give them perspective on the issue.
They’re right.
“Yes they do.” I say. “He’s very exciting.”
“Yes, he’s very smart. Very much better than Gay-or-gee Boosh” (their regular pronunciation, not mine). George W. is widely mocked here, so just about anyone is a better representative for your nation than Bush. Four monkeys playing Hungry-Hungry-Hippo are a better representative for your nation than Bush. Obama for Bush is like a Mercedes for a pogo stick in the international eye.
“And it is interesting--” they say with some discomfort. “He is…not white.”
Yep.
They don’t know how to phrase this observation, and I don’t blame them. See, I know that racial relations in Russian are not as…advanced one would like them to be. For the most part, I find individuals to be polite and generally open, but in a city of some fifteen million, I have seen maybe two dozen black people since I arrived four months ago. So I’m not hoping for any great examples of modern racial relations. That’s just how it is, here. It’s not racist, per say, but the issue of black vs. white is just…not there in an obvious sense. It doesn’t need to be in a vastly white and asian land.
Still, these are English lessons they need. The wrong word would only suggest racial issues where there may in fact be none. Case in point:
“I know this word from music and movies,” says one student, proud of his cultural savvy. “I know: We can say he is a “nigger president.”
Nope. Nope. You cannot say that.
I should pause to explain here that the word “nigger” sounds very much like one of the Russian words for “dark (skinned).” So much so that when I try to stress the differences in pronunciation between “nyeger“ and “nigger,” my students can’t seem to hear it. To them, it just sounds like an accent-affliction of the word “dark (skinned)” and they find my horror completely confusing, if not comical.
“So ‘nigger’ is okay, but ‘nyegger’ is bad?”
Nope. Other way around. But avoid both.
Then a good minute and a half of those sentences repeated. But finally they get it.
“So what should I say if someone is nyegger?”
“You say they are black.”
Shocked, horrified looks all around.
“No?! You call them ‘black‘?!”
“Um, yes.”
“Oh you don’t say that in Russian. Is very, very not good thing to say in Russian. You don’t call anyone ‘black’. I cannot. Is there anything else I can say?”
“African-American.”
“He is from Africa?”
“No”
“Then why ‘African’?”
And I have absolutely no acceptable answer to this question. They’re right. There is something degrading about that. An American with a qualifier. So, linguistic politics in hand, I offer the following advice:
“Just say ‘black’. Or nothing. Nothing would be good.”
“So why do I hear this word “nyegger’ all the time in music if I can’t say it?”
I give the “nigger”/”fag”/”Jew” lecture, and tell them that it is okay to say this if you are of the group, but not okay if you are outside it.
“Why do you have a word you can’t use?”
“Well--don’t you have a bad word for ‘Chechnyan’” I ask, simultaneously terrified to bring up one of the touchiest political subjects this side of NATO.
“No. Just ‘Chechnyan‘.”
I call total bullshit.
“Really?” I ask. So if no Chechnyans were around, and you wanted to talk about them badly, you call them Chechnyan?”
“Oh, I see. There are lots of words then, if you want to be rude,” and I get a list of no less than five things you can derogatively call someone from Chechnya.
I don’t offer this story in a lesson in racism: only as a lesson in the underground politics of words. While the political importance of “nigger” is perfectly apparent to us, they find the slight of word odd, if not foolish. From the outside, it all looks so silly. But to label them with an actual colour? Well that crosses a line, in their mind.
In the end, all I cam out of this with was the realisation that to hold someone hostage with a misplaced vowel, an added consonant, a change in articulation, is insane.
But we all do it, in our own forms.
All my students want to discuss this, their belief being that I am close enough to American to give them perspective on the issue.
They’re right.
“Yes they do.” I say. “He’s very exciting.”
“Yes, he’s very smart. Very much better than Gay-or-gee Boosh” (their regular pronunciation, not mine). George W. is widely mocked here, so just about anyone is a better representative for your nation than Bush. Four monkeys playing Hungry-Hungry-Hippo are a better representative for your nation than Bush. Obama for Bush is like a Mercedes for a pogo stick in the international eye.
“And it is interesting--” they say with some discomfort. “He is…not white.”
Yep.
They don’t know how to phrase this observation, and I don’t blame them. See, I know that racial relations in Russian are not as…advanced one would like them to be. For the most part, I find individuals to be polite and generally open, but in a city of some fifteen million, I have seen maybe two dozen black people since I arrived four months ago. So I’m not hoping for any great examples of modern racial relations. That’s just how it is, here. It’s not racist, per say, but the issue of black vs. white is just…not there in an obvious sense. It doesn’t need to be in a vastly white and asian land.
Still, these are English lessons they need. The wrong word would only suggest racial issues where there may in fact be none. Case in point:
“I know this word from music and movies,” says one student, proud of his cultural savvy. “I know: We can say he is a “nigger president.”
Nope. Nope. You cannot say that.
I should pause to explain here that the word “nigger” sounds very much like one of the Russian words for “dark (skinned).” So much so that when I try to stress the differences in pronunciation between “nyeger“ and “nigger,” my students can’t seem to hear it. To them, it just sounds like an accent-affliction of the word “dark (skinned)” and they find my horror completely confusing, if not comical.
“So ‘nigger’ is okay, but ‘nyegger’ is bad?”
Nope. Other way around. But avoid both.
Then a good minute and a half of those sentences repeated. But finally they get it.
“So what should I say if someone is nyegger?”
“You say they are black.”
Shocked, horrified looks all around.
“No?! You call them ‘black‘?!”
“Um, yes.”
“Oh you don’t say that in Russian. Is very, very not good thing to say in Russian. You don’t call anyone ‘black’. I cannot. Is there anything else I can say?”
“African-American.”
“He is from Africa?”
“No”
“Then why ‘African’?”
And I have absolutely no acceptable answer to this question. They’re right. There is something degrading about that. An American with a qualifier. So, linguistic politics in hand, I offer the following advice:
“Just say ‘black’. Or nothing. Nothing would be good.”
“So why do I hear this word “nyegger’ all the time in music if I can’t say it?”
I give the “nigger”/”fag”/”Jew” lecture, and tell them that it is okay to say this if you are of the group, but not okay if you are outside it.
“Why do you have a word you can’t use?”
“Well--don’t you have a bad word for ‘Chechnyan’” I ask, simultaneously terrified to bring up one of the touchiest political subjects this side of NATO.
“No. Just ‘Chechnyan‘.”
I call total bullshit.
“Really?” I ask. So if no Chechnyans were around, and you wanted to talk about them badly, you call them Chechnyan?”
“Oh, I see. There are lots of words then, if you want to be rude,” and I get a list of no less than five things you can derogatively call someone from Chechnya.
I don’t offer this story in a lesson in racism: only as a lesson in the underground politics of words. While the political importance of “nigger” is perfectly apparent to us, they find the slight of word odd, if not foolish. From the outside, it all looks so silly. But to label them with an actual colour? Well that crosses a line, in their mind.
In the end, all I cam out of this with was the realisation that to hold someone hostage with a misplaced vowel, an added consonant, a change in articulation, is insane.
But we all do it, in our own forms.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Give the People What They Want
Every other day a handful of new flyers are plastered to the inside walls of my “secure” building. Mostly they are for pizza and sushi delivery. Occasionally, they are for “Internet Access IN THIS BUILDING!” which is, incidentally, not at all available, so I’ve gotten used to ignoring them.
But this one stood out for me:
Let’s forget, for a moment, the creepy cartoon tweaker delivering my pizza. Let us look instead, at the heading of the flyer.
Allow me to translate:
DONATELLO: PIZZA/COFFEE
Well those are two things I love! And two things that I have wanted to combine at least none times in my life! Genius.
Also, if you look on the back:
They can deliver cigarettes with your pizza/beer/coffee delivery.
Gordon Ramsey, Wolfgang Puck, Common Sense: y’all just got bitchslapped.
But this one stood out for me:
Let’s forget, for a moment, the creepy cartoon tweaker delivering my pizza. Let us look instead, at the heading of the flyer.
Allow me to translate:
DONATELLO: PIZZA/COFFEE
Well those are two things I love! And two things that I have wanted to combine at least none times in my life! Genius.
Also, if you look on the back:
They can deliver cigarettes with your pizza/beer/coffee delivery.
Gordon Ramsey, Wolfgang Puck, Common Sense: y’all just got bitchslapped.
Monday, January 19, 2009
5 Minutes in Homesickness
Here in Russia, I’m sitting on someone else’s furniture while across the ocean somebody else sits on mine, each of us living for the time being on somebody else’s turf. I flip through pictures of home on my computer for awhile, of goodbye parties and family and a wedding from before I left. I try to use my brain to write something, anything, but it’s like trying to carve a turkey with a butter knife; not enough strength, too dull.
Instead I lie back, stare at the ceiling, and wonder what the fuck everyone I ever knew is doing.
I cross the room and stare into the mirror, thinking that this is the youngest I will ever be, probably the best I will ever look, and think how absurd it is, youth to flourishing for nothing more than a computer monitor and Soviet-era wallpaper.
I move the Christmas cards from the window sill and crank open the cutainless window (Where are all the curtains in Russia?) I feel the cold rush of air hit my face but it’s not cold enough. I want something that hits me like an icy wall, something that freezes the water in every pore, something to wake me up. This is just not cold enough.
Since I can’t find anything to wake me up, I need something to put me to sleep. I meander to the fridge and open the freezer (there’s that cold). I pull out the shared vodka, and pour two fingers into one of the tiny tea cups. Pickles, as a chaser, on the little saucer. Cheese and bread. And then I amble with my sad buffet back to the bedroom. An hour passes, with the vodka, with the food, with Kurt Vonnegut. One more vodka.
In the corner of my eye the monitor watches me. I stare back, at the white document, the black cursor blinking at me expectantly. I shut the computer with a click.
No writing will get done, tonight. It's too quiet.
Instead I lie back, stare at the ceiling, and wonder what the fuck everyone I ever knew is doing.
I cross the room and stare into the mirror, thinking that this is the youngest I will ever be, probably the best I will ever look, and think how absurd it is, youth to flourishing for nothing more than a computer monitor and Soviet-era wallpaper.
I move the Christmas cards from the window sill and crank open the cutainless window (Where are all the curtains in Russia?) I feel the cold rush of air hit my face but it’s not cold enough. I want something that hits me like an icy wall, something that freezes the water in every pore, something to wake me up. This is just not cold enough.
Since I can’t find anything to wake me up, I need something to put me to sleep. I meander to the fridge and open the freezer (there’s that cold). I pull out the shared vodka, and pour two fingers into one of the tiny tea cups. Pickles, as a chaser, on the little saucer. Cheese and bread. And then I amble with my sad buffet back to the bedroom. An hour passes, with the vodka, with the food, with Kurt Vonnegut. One more vodka.
In the corner of my eye the monitor watches me. I stare back, at the white document, the black cursor blinking at me expectantly. I shut the computer with a click.
No writing will get done, tonight. It's too quiet.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I Probably Got a Virus Just Opening This
But whatever.
If you're anything like me, you just love those scam-spam e-mails claiming hardship and insisting that you are to be a political saviour. And if you are in Russia and regularly use Russian sites, this is what they look like:
I get emailed this at least three times a day. No joke.
Now which is more persuasive: the heartbeaking tale of political woe, or the bad grammar?
Everyone e-mail now. With just your computer, you can help right the wrongs and make the world a better place.
And make 16.2m dollars.
Or, you can play solitaire.
Both good, equally profitable choices.
If you're anything like me, you just love those scam-spam e-mails claiming hardship and insisting that you are to be a political saviour. And if you are in Russia and regularly use Russian sites, this is what they look like:
Good day,I am Nikolay Sintsov,personal assistant to Mikhail
Khodorkovsky,once rated asthe richest man in Russia and owner of YUKOS OIL
(Russian largest oilcompany),chairman CEO: Menatep SBP Bank (a well reputable
financial institutionwith its branches all over the world).
SOURCE OF FUNDS:I have a profiling amount in an excess of US$40.5M, which I
seek you to accommodate for me. You will be rewarded with 40% of the total sum
for your partnership. Can you handle this?As his personal assistant, I was
authorized to transfer money of an American oil merchant for his last oil deal
with my boss Mikhail Khodorkovsky.The funds have since left
the shores of America to a European private financial institution where
the final crediting is to be carried out.While I was on the process, my boss got
arrested for his involvement inpolitics by financing the leading and opposing
political parties (the Union ofRight Forces, led by Boris Nemtsov, and Yabloko,
a liberal/social democraticparty led by Gregor Yavlinsky), which posed as a
threat to President VladimirPutin's second Tenure as Russian president. Since
then, I have placed on hold all transactions concerning this amount. You can
catch more of the story on this website:http://www.yukos.com/http://news.ft.com/cms/4bb9612a-d254-11d8-b661-00000e2511c8.htmlhttp://www.hoovers.com/yukos/--ID__53700--/free-co-factsheet.xhtmlhttp://newsfromrussia.com/main/2003/11/13/51215.htmlYOUR
ROLE:All I need from you is to stand as the beneficiary of the above mentioned
sumand I will re-profile the funds with your data, which will enable
thefinancial firm transfer the sum to you. I have decided to use this sum
torelocate to the American continent and never to be connected to any of
MikhailKhodorkovsky conglomerates, presently I am in Burkina faso, West
Africa,for ahide out,as it's a remote country. The transaction has to be
concluded as soon and as I confirm your readiness toproceed with me, I will
provide you with details.My private email below;http://ca.mc521.mail.yahoo.com/mc/compose?to=nikolay_sintsov1@whipmail.com
or http://ca.mc521.mail.yahoo.com/mc/compose?to=nikolay_sintsov30@yahoo.inThank
you very much.
Regards,Mr.Nikolay Sintsov
I get emailed this at least three times a day. No joke.
Now which is more persuasive: the heartbeaking tale of political woe, or the bad grammar?
Everyone e-mail now. With just your computer, you can help right the wrongs and make the world a better place.
And make 16.2m dollars.
Or, you can play solitaire.
Both good, equally profitable choices.
An Up-to-the-Minute Report from Moscow
Hello all, from Moscow's finest black-lit, cubist-accented, 1950's-style diner that specializes in Morrocan food and hookah. And house music.
I will not go so far out on a limb as to assume that it is Moscow's only black-lit, cubist-accented, 1950's-style diner specializing in Morrocan food, hookah, and house music. That can't be said for sure.
And I return from the washroom with only one thought on my mind-- Why in the name of all that is Russian do the toilets have two flushing mechanisms? How am I supposed to use these both?!
I am at a loss and don't know who to ask.
Suggestions welcome.
I will not go so far out on a limb as to assume that it is Moscow's only black-lit, cubist-accented, 1950's-style diner specializing in Morrocan food, hookah, and house music. That can't be said for sure.
And I return from the washroom with only one thought on my mind-- Why in the name of all that is Russian do the toilets have two flushing mechanisms? How am I supposed to use these both?!
I am at a loss and don't know who to ask.
Suggestions welcome.
Five Minutes in "I'm an Idiot"
I exit my apartment elevator to a woman coming into our "lobby" (that's a bare concrete room with mailboxes and a torn chunk of rug to all you Westerners. Yes! A rug! Nice...)
The woman has with her three animals. Logic forces me to assume that these are three dogs but one could just as probably be a horse, while the other two less probably have dog faces buried somewhere in those tiny fur-ball bodies.
As she tries to untangle the three leashes she is talking away to the creatures in Russian--clip clip clip--just talking away, Russian word after Russian word.
As I make my way to the door I smile to myself. That's so weird of her, I think. Dogs can't understand Russian.
I then immediately make a mental note to tell Kira we can't buy anymore of the cheap vodka. Clearly, that crap eats at your brain.
The woman has with her three animals. Logic forces me to assume that these are three dogs but one could just as probably be a horse, while the other two less probably have dog faces buried somewhere in those tiny fur-ball bodies.
As she tries to untangle the three leashes she is talking away to the creatures in Russian--clip clip clip--just talking away, Russian word after Russian word.
As I make my way to the door I smile to myself. That's so weird of her, I think. Dogs can't understand Russian.
I then immediately make a mental note to tell Kira we can't buy anymore of the cheap vodka. Clearly, that crap eats at your brain.
How We Came to Live with a Mouse
Not to be one of those people who is always talking about her pets, but Mashka did absolutely the funniest thing last month.
She grew balls.
Little hairy kitten balls.
For two days of denial, Kira called Mashka “he” while I steadfastly refused to acknowledge the little kitty testicles. I couldn’t even look at him for a bit--I felt so betrayed, like this was knowledge he perhaps should have disclosed. But no, he just went about chasing tinfoil and licking the faucet without dropping this balls-bomb on us and making us look stupid.
But I finally came to accept that we have a little boy in the house.
Still, he needed a name change, because “Mashka” is “little Maria” in Russian, so after about a week of me calling him “Balls” we decided on “Mmishka,” Russian for “mouse,” because it wasn’t such a change, because he really is very tiny for his age, and because now we have a “Koshka” and a “Mmishka” or “Cat” and “Mouse” in Russian.
I chose not to include a picture of kitten testes. You are welcome.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Yes I am Alive, but This Guy is Not
Vacation in Russia just ended this week.
Posting will resume tomorrow.
But I can offer you a cliffhanger:
kitten balls
Stay tuned.
In the meantime, some funny news out of Russia for your Friday:
Woman kills her husband with killer divan:
A woman, who became a widow as she attempted to teach a lesson to her lazy
husband, was convicted at a St. Petersburg court. The woman literally killed the
man with a divan.
The court brought down a conditional sentence for the period of one year
against Vera Lukyanova, 55, and found the woman guilty of involuntary
manslaughter, Fontanka.ru reports with a reference to the press service of the
St. Petersburg Office of the Public Prosecutor.
The tragedy occurred in the summer of 2008. The man had a hangover in the
morning after he had drunk too much alcohol the day before. His wife was
infuriated with her husband’s behavior. In a fit of anger she kicked the
convertible divan, on which the man was resting, and the divan folded into two
and gripped the man in a vice.
Forensic experts said that the man died instantly: the strong springs
of the killer-divan broke the man’s ribs and even his spine.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Hi, This is Larissa
I'm not in right now. I've gone to Kiev for six days.
A Happy New Year to everyone!
If you'd like, you can leave a message after the beep.
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A Happy New Year to everyone!
If you'd like, you can leave a message after the beep.
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My New Favourite Product
If I told you that I found a delicious beverage, bubbly, plum-flavoured, not too sweet, alcoholic but not too much so, light, refreshing, and unique, would you want to try it?
Would you want to try it if I told showed you the label?
Yep. Funky Juz.
Anyone else thinking of the “Funky Spunk” episode of Sex and the City? The only way you aren’t is if you haven’t seen it before.
Thing is, I wasn’t even buying alcohol that day. But you just don’t turn down a label like that.
And I won’t even get into the fact that the logo looks like it belongs on something that scours your porcelain. I’ll just leave it at “Juz.”
Would you want to try it if I told showed you the label?
Yep. Funky Juz.
Anyone else thinking of the “Funky Spunk” episode of Sex and the City? The only way you aren’t is if you haven’t seen it before.
Thing is, I wasn’t even buying alcohol that day. But you just don’t turn down a label like that.
And I won’t even get into the fact that the logo looks like it belongs on something that scours your porcelain. I’ll just leave it at “Juz.”
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
More Translation Problems
Sometimes, classes get off topic. Most of my students like it that way, and enjoy testing out their English in “real” conversations, which means that they just want to talk to me about movies, and food, and Canada (but never Canadian movies or food--what does that tell you about national culture?)
So with one student, Sem, we got into a discussion of my own Russian studies, and how I was coming along in day-to-day life. I told him that I’m getting better, but that mix ups are always happening, and told him my little story about the martrushka. He loved it, so I shared the following story about my friend Jeff:
Sem likes that story, and offers his own:
And sorry for the consistently adult nature of these posts, guys, but the best translation stories are always the ones that are inadvertently sexual simply due to the fact that they are such easily made mistakes: in virtually every language, most sexual words are actually euphemisms. “Preservativs”, “putting out…“ That’s what we get for coding our speech so thoroughly….
So with one student, Sem, we got into a discussion of my own Russian studies, and how I was coming along in day-to-day life. I told him that I’m getting better, but that mix ups are always happening, and told him my little story about the martrushka. He loved it, so I shared the following story about my friend Jeff:
He had just come to Moscow, and was pretty good with his Russian already. At
2:30 in the morning, he needed to get some grocery shopping done, so he walked
into the supermarket and up to the deli counter. “A little tipsy” (according to
him--so in reality it should probably be more like “quite drunk”) he smiles at
the woman behind the counter and says “Mnye nuzhna” (I need) “sosoki.”
The
woman glares.
He thinks nothing of it, since the evil eye is basically the
“Hello, how are you?“ of Russian supermarket service. If Moscow supermarkets
were to go so far as to hire Wal-Mart style greeters, they’d probably kick you
in the ass and make fun of your haircut on your way in. So Jeff repeats his
request, and the woman only gets more upset, asking him what he wants very
curtly. Baffled, he finally just points to the sausages, asks for a half kilo,
and leaves the deli.
Only when he gets home with a dictionary does he realise
that he did not ask for sausages (“sosiski”), but for nipples.
Sem likes that story, and offers his own:
He was fifteen, and went with his class on a trip to…I dunno…Austria or
somewhere. They were all sitting in a hotel room, and goofing around, and one
fourteen year-old girl decided to show off her excellent English skills by
reading aloud from the label of a drink bottle to all the hyper teenagers
in the room.
“All natural!” she announces. “No preservatives.” And suddenly
turns bright red, and leaves the room to the laughter of far too many less than forgiving adolescents.
“Preservativs” in Russian means “condoms.”
And sorry for the consistently adult nature of these posts, guys, but the best translation stories are always the ones that are inadvertently sexual simply due to the fact that they are such easily made mistakes: in virtually every language, most sexual words are actually euphemisms. “Preservativs”, “putting out…“ That’s what we get for coding our speech so thoroughly….
Because Complete Unintelligibility to Other Humans Hasn't Bothered Me Yet, but THIS...
There is this shop next to my metro station where I buy DVDs for 200 roubles a pop. About 8 bucks. Of course I’m not kidding myself here--I’m sure that every DVD and CD in the store is bootleg. I could buy the new Bond DVD before it even opened in Russian theatres. I’ve probably bought at least half a dozen DVDs there.
Anyway, yesterday I bought two DVDs to keep myself company. I pop one in and--despite the fact that the case clearly says it has English sound, it is 100 percent in Russian. Not even English subtitles. Same with the second one.
Pathetically, I don’t think I even know enough Russian to argue with the guy. So the way I see it, I have no choice to learn perfect Russian, and earn my sixteen bucks back.
“The Other Boleyn Girl” had better be Citizen f*cking Kane.
“The Other Boleyn Girl” had better be Citizen f*cking Kane.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
And I Have to Work on Boxing Day?
I am really not feeling Christmas. And yes, that is because there is no Christmas to feel, I know.
I spoke to my mother on the phone, and was listening to her tell me about Christmas shopping, and cooking, and how everybody has been running all over town etc. And I realised that I totally forgot what that was like. None of that here. People do gifts on New Year’s, but not to the degree that we do back home, it seems. And Christmas is a quiet holiday, more for a big dinner, and maybe church. More like Thanksgiving. They tell me that this is because of the Soviet crackdown on religious holidays, how Christmas was not really “permitted” as a major holiday. So people, being as people are, just moved it, rather than surrender it, and New Years became the thing.
Ironically, I have always hated New Years with the intensity of a thousand…um…a thousand really intense things.*
Anyway, I have found three reasons to get into New Years now: 1) No Christmas. 2) The metro--no waiting for a cab or a sober driver, neither of which seem available on the 31st of Dec. and 3) fireworks. Yes, they do fireworks here on New Years, and those of you who know me well know that I am like a lobotomised Muppet when fireworks go off. I love them. Like seriously, have them at my funeral love ‘em. So that should be good…
In the meantime, I am trying not to think much about what everyone is doing back home, for fear that I will miss it too much. This weekend, for the first time, I missed home. I was watching 30Rock on DVD and for no reason it suddenly reminded me of being back home, holing up in my apartment on a day off with Tom and watching every episode at least once. Which made me think of my apartment, and my unbelievably soft leather couch, where I’d sit drinking white wine with Portage and chatting. So to distract myself I made chilli, which made me miss even my slow-cooker, the one my sister Anna got me, which made me miss having sisters around who know what you like.
I missed peanut butter. I missed drinking tap water. I missed toilets that flush on the side, and being able to ask for help in a store. I missed my old apartment swimming pool and sauna. I missed storm-chasing with Jon. I missed buying aspirin without a dictionary. I missed Allison teasing me and I missed Julie freaking out about stuff. I missed seeing my friends babies grow up, and I missed wide streets and complete sidewalks. I missed a lot. For the first time, this weekend, I missed it all.
It passed, of course, and I didn’t miss anything enough to want to actually go back home. But if I could just see home, just for a day or two…just a little bit…
So I’ve been watching movies, trying to write, and reading a ton. A lot of Chuck Palahniuk, mostly. Right now I’m reading "A Clockwork Orange." Also, Kira just turned me on to Children of Men (movie and book.) I’ve been filling my head with bombs and anarchy, and other people’s thoughts.
So, uh, A Very Merry, Nihilistic Christmas from Ulitsa Dibenko, folks. It doesn’t get any less seasonal than this.
*I like to chalk it up to the first NY I remember, 1986-87. It was awful. Everyone counted down and cheered and hugged, and was so loud, and little Larissa, being absolutely exhausted and--hello--- five years old, I broke down and started crying “What was so bad about 1986?” I just remember my mother kind of looking at me strangely, giving me a hug, and putting me down to sleep on the bed with all the coats.
So psych majors, analyse that.
I spoke to my mother on the phone, and was listening to her tell me about Christmas shopping, and cooking, and how everybody has been running all over town etc. And I realised that I totally forgot what that was like. None of that here. People do gifts on New Year’s, but not to the degree that we do back home, it seems. And Christmas is a quiet holiday, more for a big dinner, and maybe church. More like Thanksgiving. They tell me that this is because of the Soviet crackdown on religious holidays, how Christmas was not really “permitted” as a major holiday. So people, being as people are, just moved it, rather than surrender it, and New Years became the thing.
Ironically, I have always hated New Years with the intensity of a thousand…um…a thousand really intense things.*
Anyway, I have found three reasons to get into New Years now: 1) No Christmas. 2) The metro--no waiting for a cab or a sober driver, neither of which seem available on the 31st of Dec. and 3) fireworks. Yes, they do fireworks here on New Years, and those of you who know me well know that I am like a lobotomised Muppet when fireworks go off. I love them. Like seriously, have them at my funeral love ‘em. So that should be good…
In the meantime, I am trying not to think much about what everyone is doing back home, for fear that I will miss it too much. This weekend, for the first time, I missed home. I was watching 30Rock on DVD and for no reason it suddenly reminded me of being back home, holing up in my apartment on a day off with Tom and watching every episode at least once. Which made me think of my apartment, and my unbelievably soft leather couch, where I’d sit drinking white wine with Portage and chatting. So to distract myself I made chilli, which made me miss even my slow-cooker, the one my sister Anna got me, which made me miss having sisters around who know what you like.
I missed peanut butter. I missed drinking tap water. I missed toilets that flush on the side, and being able to ask for help in a store. I missed my old apartment swimming pool and sauna. I missed storm-chasing with Jon. I missed buying aspirin without a dictionary. I missed Allison teasing me and I missed Julie freaking out about stuff. I missed seeing my friends babies grow up, and I missed wide streets and complete sidewalks. I missed a lot. For the first time, this weekend, I missed it all.
It passed, of course, and I didn’t miss anything enough to want to actually go back home. But if I could just see home, just for a day or two…just a little bit…
So I’ve been watching movies, trying to write, and reading a ton. A lot of Chuck Palahniuk, mostly. Right now I’m reading "A Clockwork Orange." Also, Kira just turned me on to Children of Men (movie and book.) I’ve been filling my head with bombs and anarchy, and other people’s thoughts.
So, uh, A Very Merry, Nihilistic Christmas from Ulitsa Dibenko, folks. It doesn’t get any less seasonal than this.
*I like to chalk it up to the first NY I remember, 1986-87. It was awful. Everyone counted down and cheered and hugged, and was so loud, and little Larissa, being absolutely exhausted and--hello--- five years old, I broke down and started crying “What was so bad about 1986?” I just remember my mother kind of looking at me strangely, giving me a hug, and putting me down to sleep on the bed with all the coats.
So psych majors, analyse that.
Dream Diary
I have been having the most vivid, intense dreams lately. The kind where you wake up, and you are surprised to wake up. I going to blame the time of year, the weather, the darkness. It is pitch black by four pm, and that makes you want nothing but sleep, or some other version of hibernation, all day long…
I dreamed last night that I could paint. Swirling colours, oils, watercolours, perfect brushstrokes of every shape size and hue fusing into one greater, beautiful thing. The paintings looked like nothing, maybe human in proportion, I don’t know. And I spent all my time either painting or combing Russian art stores, trying to find the perfect supplies, the best colours, the ideal textures so that I could go home, not sleep, and spend the rest of my hours working them into something beautiful. Not even beautiful--just creating things to match what seemed alive, even breathing, in my head.
I cannot paint. I can sketch, barely, abstract human forms, a leftover of my time short time studying design. But I haven’t so much as held a paintbrush since Kindergarten class. Whatever I could produce would impress no one, least of all me. This I know. This morning, however, I am overwhelmed this morning by the desire to do just that.
Maybe I’ll buy myself some pastels for Christmas. Although knowing me, the urge will wear off by the New Year. I’m changeable (read: flighty) like that. It's like Lucy Ricardo is my brain's Project Manager....
I dreamed last night that I could paint. Swirling colours, oils, watercolours, perfect brushstrokes of every shape size and hue fusing into one greater, beautiful thing. The paintings looked like nothing, maybe human in proportion, I don’t know. And I spent all my time either painting or combing Russian art stores, trying to find the perfect supplies, the best colours, the ideal textures so that I could go home, not sleep, and spend the rest of my hours working them into something beautiful. Not even beautiful--just creating things to match what seemed alive, even breathing, in my head.
I cannot paint. I can sketch, barely, abstract human forms, a leftover of my time short time studying design. But I haven’t so much as held a paintbrush since Kindergarten class. Whatever I could produce would impress no one, least of all me. This I know. This morning, however, I am overwhelmed this morning by the desire to do just that.
Maybe I’ll buy myself some pastels for Christmas. Although knowing me, the urge will wear off by the New Year. I’m changeable (read: flighty) like that. It's like Lucy Ricardo is my brain's Project Manager....
Friday, December 19, 2008
Something Funny For You to Read
The camera-less situation is making this feature more difficult. There are only so many screen caps of my face you guys can take before you just start feeling bad about yourselves, I know.
So this week, I'll tell you something tongue-in-cheek my student Anna just told me in a class about film censorship in Russia:
So this week, I'll tell you something tongue-in-cheek my student Anna just told me in a class about film censorship in Russia:
"Of course the Soviets, they banned a lot of Western films.
Everyone thought it was because they were critical, of the government, of
Communism, and such. I don't know about that. But most of thosebanned movies were bad. Just bad movies. So maybe the government did us a favour. We didn't waste our time."Heh. First time I ever heard of media censorship in the name of artistic integrity. Anna is, for the record, hilarious.
Happy Friday, guys!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Russians Really Know How to Protest
After all, they did get that whole Bolshevik Revolution thing off the ground in a big way. Brought it down in a big way too.
So what happened this Sunday is relatively trivial. I would, however, like to highlight for you
my personal favourite part of the article:
So what happened this Sunday is relatively trivial. I would, however, like to highlight for you
my personal favourite part of the article:
"...On the opening day of Solidarity's founding congress Friday, unidentified individuals dumped a busload of dead and wounded sheep outside the meeting hall in a Moscow suburb. The sheep were wearing baseball caps and tee shirts with Solidarity written on them, according to Kasperov's Web site...."
I'm thinking that the guy whose job it is to think up the "creepy and fucked up protesting tactics that give grown men nightmares" probably got a big, fat raise today.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
I'm Having Trouble Feeling Christmassy
Maybe it's the lack of snow? Or maybe it's the fact that Christmas here isn't until January?
Or maybe it's Christmas displays like this:
Or maybe it's Christmas displays like this:
Yep. Kissing bunnies. Purple tinsel. Flowers. Feathers. Sure.
I'm at a Sushi Restaurant
The theme from The Godfather is the music they have chosen to play.
I don't even have to crack a joke for this one.
You can't make this up.
I don't even have to crack a joke for this one.
You can't make this up.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Still No Snow
So it hasn't really snowed in Moscow in three years.
I mean, it has snowed, but it hasn't snowed.
I haven't been able to find a precipitation table online, but virtually every Muscovite I have asked has admitted that, while it is unusually warm this year, than has never been more than an inch or two of snow on the ground these past few years. Ten years ago, of course. Five years ago, sure. But not recently. And there is certainly none today.
Today, discussing the fact that I may not be able to go snowboarding on my New Years vacation time, it comes up in my Friday evening class. "You'll have to go north," they tell me. Of course there is some snow on the mountains, but not like there used to be. Not for three years.
I ask them what seems to me too obvious a question:
"Does this concern you?"
Their answer causes me to nearly fall off my chair (yes, I usually sit when I teach):
"Yes, of course. We like the snow."
Ummm....okay, not where I way going with that line of questioning.
Back home, if we went three winters without shoveling out our driveways, we'd be scared. Nevermind the "Aw dang, I really would love a white Christmas" crap that they're spouting here, but more of a "Holy shit--is climate supposed to change in half a decade like that?" kind of questioning.
And I don't know just how deeply to broach that subject with them. Are they in denial? Am I a typicfal fussy, panicked Westerner who cares "too much" about global issues because I have "nothing more pressing to worry about"?
All I know is that were this to happen at home, there would be serious questions.
Where are the questions?
Pretty Things to Look At
Click here for something pretty to look at this Friday.
Anna, if you want next Friday's slot, you'll have to send some pics, girl.
Anna, if you want next Friday's slot, you'll have to send some pics, girl.
Heheh...I said slot.
Happy Friday, guys!
Okay: Two Canadians, an American and a Russian Walk into StPetersburg (pt.3)
(part 1) (part 2)
As we take our seats in the train car, we we're less than thrilled to realise that the drunken German hater and his friends happen to be getting on the same car as us. Unable to get four seats together, I sit on one side of the car, Kira, Cybelle, and Slava facing me.
Not one stop into the ride, and we begin to hear “Cah-Nah-Dah! Cah-Nah-Dah!” cheering-style, from the German-haters who have now decided that we are awesome and they want our attention. Thanks to the wine, and the fact that we don’t want to encourage them we, of course, can't help but break into fits of giggles. Kira and Cybelle have it the worst--On the other side of the aisle, I try not to look at them to keep the giggles from spreading, knowing that the Russian guys will take the laughter as an invitation to chat.
But these boys need no invitation. Of course. They are openly staring and talking about us, deliberately trying to make us look (and it is at this point that I notice, with irony, that the head-dumbass is sitting in fron of a sign with the German flag that boasts “made in Germany” in Russian---and I had nobody to point this out to! Dammit!) As he tries to talk to Kira and Cybele (who are way past composed at this point) one of his friends keeps staring at me, trying to wave, looking sheepish. I thank God that I am hemmed in between two stangers. Until he turns out to be not-so-sheepish (or not-so-sober, anyway) and asks the person sitting on my right if he could please have the seat next to me. And dammit, jackass on the right! He is given the seat next to me.
I now have Kira and Cybelle absolutely losing their shit, between Ringleader on their right and place-switcher next to me. Between giggles, they shoot me sympathetic looks, but this is just too much for them. Especially since spot-switcher on my right is doing nothing--absolutely nothing-- but openly gazing at my face. Finally, after what was probably only thirty seconds but felt like at least thirty one, he speaks. I don’t even say anything, worried that if I tell him I don’t speak Russian in Russian, he will consider this enough fluency for conversation. He looks down, and thankfully, seems to get it very quickly.
And despite myself, I laugh, unfortunately encouraging this linguistic freak show even further. Fortified by my awkward laugh of relief, spot-switcher decides to try his tack with Slava, speaking to him in Russian and gesturing at me. Cybelle and Kira are absolutely wracked with laughter now, and I am desperately awaiting stop Akademicheskaya.
Finally, we get there, and I am up like a shot out of my seat and out the door or the train.
Cybelle and I berate poor Slava for not picking up on the girl-code of “let’s get the f*ck nout of here” three stops ago. Kira is still in near hysterics. This is followed by full hysterics as Slava informs us that spot-switcher was asking Slava if he could “take your friend to the cinema and then for a beer.”
Though you have to give the man points for tenacity in the face of complete ridiculousness. Good for him.
We grab from the 24 hour supermarket, in a stroke of inspiration, some good German beer, and decide we are through with both walking in the cold and public transport for the night.
We grab a taxi (which, in Russia, is more or less synonymous with “hitchhiking”) where we are ordered by Slava to speak no English if we don’t want the cab driver ("random citizen with a car") to overcharge us.
We get back to the flat. Hitler bites Slava, and I have another hater on my side, though Kira and Cybelle still seem optimistic about the cat’s innocence. We all chat for a bit, watch half of “The Princess Diaries” in Russian on TV, and then it’s off to bed. Tomorrow, we are going to The Hermitage, and I am beyond excited….
As we take our seats in the train car, we we're less than thrilled to realise that the drunken German hater and his friends happen to be getting on the same car as us. Unable to get four seats together, I sit on one side of the car, Kira, Cybelle, and Slava facing me.
Not one stop into the ride, and we begin to hear “Cah-Nah-Dah! Cah-Nah-Dah!” cheering-style, from the German-haters who have now decided that we are awesome and they want our attention. Thanks to the wine, and the fact that we don’t want to encourage them we, of course, can't help but break into fits of giggles. Kira and Cybelle have it the worst--On the other side of the aisle, I try not to look at them to keep the giggles from spreading, knowing that the Russian guys will take the laughter as an invitation to chat.
But these boys need no invitation. Of course. They are openly staring and talking about us, deliberately trying to make us look (and it is at this point that I notice, with irony, that the head-dumbass is sitting in fron of a sign with the German flag that boasts “made in Germany” in Russian---and I had nobody to point this out to! Dammit!) As he tries to talk to Kira and Cybele (who are way past composed at this point) one of his friends keeps staring at me, trying to wave, looking sheepish. I thank God that I am hemmed in between two stangers. Until he turns out to be not-so-sheepish (or not-so-sober, anyway) and asks the person sitting on my right if he could please have the seat next to me. And dammit, jackass on the right! He is given the seat next to me.
I now have Kira and Cybelle absolutely losing their shit, between Ringleader on their right and place-switcher next to me. Between giggles, they shoot me sympathetic looks, but this is just too much for them. Especially since spot-switcher on my right is doing nothing--absolutely nothing-- but openly gazing at my face. Finally, after what was probably only thirty seconds but felt like at least thirty one, he speaks. I don’t even say anything, worried that if I tell him I don’t speak Russian in Russian, he will consider this enough fluency for conversation. He looks down, and thankfully, seems to get it very quickly.
But he is nothing if not resourceful, and fetches his female friend to speak with me. Apparently, this is to be our translator. She knows even less English than I know Russian, and that puts her level at---well, she doesn’t speak English. She does, however, manage to speak Russian very slowly, interjecting the occasional “Yes? You think?” into her sentences.
So, yeah, she‘s a huge help.
Cybelle leans across the aisle “I think our stop is next.” She says. And indeed the next stop is nowhere near our flat, but I ,too, decide that this is our stop.
“No, no.” says Slava loudly and cluelessly. “We have three more stops still!"
Thanks, buddy.
Then suddenly, as though with a stroke of inspiration, the lady friend leans over to me:
Lady Friend: “You,” (points at me) “You want semen tonight?”
Me: 
Okay, screw polite. These people went from rowdy but funny drunks to assholes. Kira and Cybelle cannot help me at all, and I wonder if they heard. All I can manage in response is “Don’t speak to me that way. Thant’s enough. I’m not speaking to you anymore,” and hope that my body language leaps over the language barrier. The woman seems genuinely puzzled, and frustrated, and I wonder if she is really aware of how inappropriate what she just said actually is, but I have no desire to find out. Why is the St P metro so slow?
The woman grabs my arm to get my attention.
Okay, screw polite. These people went from rowdy but funny drunks to assholes. Kira and Cybelle cannot help me at all, and I wonder if they heard. All I can manage in response is “Don’t speak to me that way. Thant’s enough. I’m not speaking to you anymore,” and hope that my body language leaps over the language barrier. The woman seems genuinely puzzled, and frustrated, and I wonder if she is really aware of how inappropriate what she just said actually is, but I have no desire to find out. Why is the St P metro so slow?
The woman grabs my arm to get my attention.
Lady Friend: “No? No? You don‘t like?” She asks me.
Me: 
Lady Friend: “No? No like boats? No water?”
Lady Friend: “No? No like boats? No water?”
OHHHHHHH. Seamen.
And despite myself, I laugh, unfortunately encouraging this linguistic freak show even further. Fortified by my awkward laugh of relief, spot-switcher decides to try his tack with Slava, speaking to him in Russian and gesturing at me. Cybelle and Kira are absolutely wracked with laughter now, and I am desperately awaiting stop Akademicheskaya.
Finally, we get there, and I am up like a shot out of my seat and out the door or the train.
Cybelle and I berate poor Slava for not picking up on the girl-code of “let’s get the f*ck nout of here” three stops ago. Kira is still in near hysterics. This is followed by full hysterics as Slava informs us that spot-switcher was asking Slava if he could “take your friend to the cinema and then for a beer.”
Though you have to give the man points for tenacity in the face of complete ridiculousness. Good for him.
We grab from the 24 hour supermarket, in a stroke of inspiration, some good German beer, and decide we are through with both walking in the cold and public transport for the night.
We grab a taxi (which, in Russia, is more or less synonymous with “hitchhiking”) where we are ordered by Slava to speak no English if we don’t want the cab driver ("random citizen with a car") to overcharge us.
We get back to the flat. Hitler bites Slava, and I have another hater on my side, though Kira and Cybelle still seem optimistic about the cat’s innocence. We all chat for a bit, watch half of “The Princess Diaries” in Russian on TV, and then it’s off to bed. Tomorrow, we are going to The Hermitage, and I am beyond excited….
To Be Continued...
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I'm a Long Way from Fitting In
The head of the Russian Orthodox church--the official state religion of Russia, has died. It's like the Pope dying for Roman Catholics, I suppose. Happened several days ago, apparently.
And do you want to know how I found out?
Yesterday, I was lost and looking for a McDonald's (as an aside, about fifty percent of my Moscow stories seem to begin with me "lost, looking for a McDonald's", so from this point onward I will abbreviate this situation as LLFAM. Should save some time.)
Anyway, I was wandering down the street, and noticed a crowd of people lining the sidewalk. I wondered if it could be an accident, but there were too many people, and they were staring a little TOO intently. I mean, the people were lined up at least three deep, and standing on window sills. Curious, I removed my headphones and was greeted by almost no sound at all. It was eerily silent. Just the sound of fat raindrops hitting hundreds of umbrellas. Then the church bells began. Initially, I just heard the bells nearby, but then noticed th at between peals, you could hear the bells of all the other churches in the area and beyond, clanging away as what I assumed by now was a funeral procession made its way through crowded central Moscow.
So I stayed, and I waited. I waited for as long as I could in the cold rain, the bells, and the wordlessness, before I had to head to class. Though every once in awhile, I could hear the snatches of a conversation, and over and over the word "stranne" (strange). And it was. But still, I didn't know to whom we were all paying our respects.
Finally, I heard it and honed in--English. I waited until the gentleman was off his phone, and then asked him to explain what was going on. He told me, and asked what I was doing in the city, to which I reply that I live here, but can't really watch the news or read the papers, so hadn't heard of this.
It was, apparently, a very big deal for many here. And whether you cared or not, the news was everywhere, apparently.
I had no clue.
None.
And just as I begin to believe that my life is becoming normal and simple here, I realise how very far from possible that will for me, for a very long time.
And do you want to know how I found out?
Yesterday, I was lost and looking for a McDonald's (as an aside, about fifty percent of my Moscow stories seem to begin with me "lost, looking for a McDonald's", so from this point onward I will abbreviate this situation as LLFAM. Should save some time.)
Anyway, I was wandering down the street, and noticed a crowd of people lining the sidewalk. I wondered if it could be an accident, but there were too many people, and they were staring a little TOO intently. I mean, the people were lined up at least three deep, and standing on window sills. Curious, I removed my headphones and was greeted by almost no sound at all. It was eerily silent. Just the sound of fat raindrops hitting hundreds of umbrellas. Then the church bells began. Initially, I just heard the bells nearby, but then noticed th at between peals, you could hear the bells of all the other churches in the area and beyond, clanging away as what I assumed by now was a funeral procession made its way through crowded central Moscow.
So I stayed, and I waited. I waited for as long as I could in the cold rain, the bells, and the wordlessness, before I had to head to class. Though every once in awhile, I could hear the snatches of a conversation, and over and over the word "stranne" (strange). And it was. But still, I didn't know to whom we were all paying our respects.
Finally, I heard it and honed in--English. I waited until the gentleman was off his phone, and then asked him to explain what was going on. He told me, and asked what I was doing in the city, to which I reply that I live here, but can't really watch the news or read the papers, so hadn't heard of this.
It was, apparently, a very big deal for many here. And whether you cared or not, the news was everywhere, apparently.
I had no clue.
None.
And just as I begin to believe that my life is becoming normal and simple here, I realise how very far from possible that will for me, for a very long time.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Apparently "Barometric Pressure" is an Excuse for Cancelling Class
Along with Mashka there, I’ve been tired--so tired--and haven’t had time to write anything.
No, that’s not true. I’ve been lazy--so lazy--and haven’t had the desire to write anything. I’d say it’s the weather (pouring rain and grey skies all the way!) but apparently that is not the case. Every Muscovite I’ve mentioned this to has told me that it’s the low air pressure, and that I should sleep as much as possible, so that I don’t get sick. Sounds like more Russian folk-wisdom to me, but since when have I ever given up a chance to be in bed?*
To ensure a full day of bedrest, Kira and I spent our Saturday evening with Russian champagne. It’s three dollars a bottle, and they sell it next door to our building so I’m sure you can figure out how that turned out**
And as a resultof our girls -bonding night, we spent a lovely Sunday at home together, getting our rest***, having a warm dinner**** and playing games*****
So I’m back to it for the week. I‘ve finally cracked my writers block on some of my other work, so my posting here may be sporadic. But don’t worry I have some backup ideas in mind for the blog, some photos I haven‘t posted yet….
To ensure a full day of bedrest, Kira and I spent our Saturday evening with Russian champagne. It’s three dollars a bottle, and they sell it next door to our building so I’m sure you can figure out how that turned out**
And as a resultof our girls -bonding night, we spent a lovely Sunday at home together, getting our rest***, having a warm dinner**** and playing games*****
So I’m back to it for the week. I‘ve finally cracked my writers block on some of my other work, so my posting here may be sporadic. But don’t worry I have some backup ideas in mind for the blog, some photos I haven‘t posted yet….
Or wait: anyone want to know all the lyrics to American Pie? Or see me list Sweet Valley High books #1-100? This is so my chance… I knew this stuff would come in handy. And to think I almost forgot it all to make room in my brain for some of those University courses I took! pffft…
Point and match, Dean Axwothy. Ya burnt.
Point and match, Dean Axwothy. Ya burnt.
*or in the bedroom. Har har. Beat you to it. Jerks.
**Kira accidentally called her dad and then didn’t recognise his voice. I spent more than ten minutes trying to converse with someone who
spoke absolutely no English at all, but managed to convince him to carry our groceries home for us.
***Sleeping til 2:30pm
**** Frozen pizza that I kinda burnt
***** A few rousing rounds of “Where the Hell did I Get That Bruise?”
Friday, December 5, 2008
I'll Give Myself a "D" for Effort
Because I'm barely trying here. I just don't feel like writing today. And because this pic is actually a couple weeks old. But it's new to you! This is the neighborhood near my Friday morning class, near Marksistskaya station. And it's just a great, colourful shot. No sarcasm, witticisms, or deep thoughts today, folks. Just something pretty to look at.
Happy Friday, all.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I'm Sure You've Heard People Bitch About This Before
Ever have one of those days?
Like say you wake up one morning to find that your possibly-retarded baby cat has pooped on your quilt but it's, like, five in the morning and you just can't deal with this before you have caffeine in your system so you go to the kitchen to light the stove, only to find that the light is burnt out and so you stub your toe on your ridiculously sharp-edged table leg on your way out to the washroom where, when you open the door to the toilet, water cascades over your feet sending your kittens into a flurry of panic?
And then, after you realise you own only three towels and use a big red blanket to clean it up running pink water over your entire apartment, and despite the fact that it is maybe five-thirty in the morning, your totally batshit downstairs neighbor rings your bell about fifty times until you let him into your apartment with two plumbers one of whom lets your seriously doorbell-and-water-tormented kitten run out (but at least he chases her down for you) and then no one can speak English to tell you what they are doing but they all still crowd around your toilet, which seems insanely innappropriate, somehow, while downstairs neighbor alternates between complaining about how your pipes have flooded his washroom and yelling at you for the fact that you are not wearing socks and thus will almost certainly "get the flu and die", and you have to go to work but can't even speak enough Russian to kick everyone out?
For sure, something like this has happened to you before?
But don't worry--it wasn't so bad.
I still had to slip on a patch of ice and smack my head into a railing, causing swelling and a faint bruise above my eye.
Same old, here in Moscow.
Like say you wake up one morning to find that your possibly-retarded baby cat has pooped on your quilt but it's, like, five in the morning and you just can't deal with this before you have caffeine in your system so you go to the kitchen to light the stove, only to find that the light is burnt out and so you stub your toe on your ridiculously sharp-edged table leg on your way out to the washroom where, when you open the door to the toilet, water cascades over your feet sending your kittens into a flurry of panic?
And then, after you realise you own only three towels and use a big red blanket to clean it up running pink water over your entire apartment, and despite the fact that it is maybe five-thirty in the morning, your totally batshit downstairs neighbor rings your bell about fifty times until you let him into your apartment with two plumbers one of whom lets your seriously doorbell-and-water-tormented kitten run out (but at least he chases her down for you) and then no one can speak English to tell you what they are doing but they all still crowd around your toilet, which seems insanely innappropriate, somehow, while downstairs neighbor alternates between complaining about how your pipes have flooded his washroom and yelling at you for the fact that you are not wearing socks and thus will almost certainly "get the flu and die", and you have to go to work but can't even speak enough Russian to kick everyone out?
For sure, something like this has happened to you before?
But don't worry--it wasn't so bad.
I still had to slip on a patch of ice and smack my head into a railing, causing swelling and a faint bruise above my eye.
Same old, here in Moscow.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Okay: Two Canadians, an American and a Russian Walk into StPetersburg (pt.2)
( Part 1 is here)We looked through our StPetersburg tourist guide and stumble across a restaurant called “The Idiot.” We consider it a sign; Cybelle is reading Dostoyevsky’s The Idiot. Also, I am reading The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Learning Russian. Not to mention the fact that Cybelle is a vegetarian, and this restaurant boasts a wide vegetarian menu (hard to come by in Russia) So to complete our perfect triad, we insist upon The Idiot for dinner. Slava tries to convince us that we should go to a restaurant he can find easily (he’s been to StP several times before) but he is out-voted three to one and we shuttle off aboard the St Petersburg metro to the city centre.
***
We exit the train to sleet and high winds. The restaurant is situated at the halfway point between two metro stops. I don’t know how far we have to walk, but it’s only an inch or two on the map, so I think it seems fine (look how much I didn‘t learn in Girl Guides!). Unfortunately, though the curving canals and bays make for a stunning cityscape, they don’t make navigation very easy. We set out on foot and walk for twenty excruciating minutes. And I mean excruciating. I know I’m from Canada--Winnipeg at that--but it feels like fire ants are nesting in my bone marrow.
Despite my aching fingers, windburnt cheeks and running nose, I am still gasping over the canals we walk along, and the graceful scrollwork wrought iron railing that is literally everywhere.
“Oh wow,” I exclaim, thinking of her promise to take photographs; “Kira! You need to take a picture of this!”
“Larissa. I am not taking my hands out of my pockets.”
Fair enough.
In the distance, I see a blue neon M growing closer.
“How is that possible? How could we have walked all the way to the next metro stop?!” I ask, employing my irritating Supleve habit of speaking to no one in particular. “Do we have to turn back?” I continue with dismay.
Looking around, we all make a solid inspection of the metro station. We have so been here before. About twenty-five minutes ago.
We’ve been walking in a circle.
As we reorient ourselves under a futile umbrella, Slava tries to convince us again to go somewhere else. But fuelled by our belief in fate (and the fact that we refuse to have walked 25 minutes just to eat at someplace random) we refuse. Did Peter the Great give up when people told him St Petersburg--a Venice for th North-- couldn’t be built? No. Like, when his people told him that building on an icy, desolate, dark, wind-and-storm-ravaged swamp was the stupid, toe-numbing, soul-draining fool’s dream of an obvious lunatic, did he listen sensibly? Of course not. So neither do we. We forge onward.
***
(fifteen minutes later)
KIRA: Larissa, I can’t feel my feet.
Me: I know! This is awesome! I totally can’t feel that cat bite anymore!
Me: I know! This is awesome! I totally can’t feel that cat bite anymore!
***
(ten minutes after later)
KIRA: A Heinekken sign. We need to go to that Heinekken sign.
LARISSA: You know it’s weird, but I have a feeling you’re right. It`s probably right there.
KIRA: Even if that‘s not the place, that’s where we’re stopping. They’ve got beer and heat inside.
Turns out we had found it. And I know this is a long shot but if any of you ever find yourself in St Petersburg, I highly recommend The Idiot; menus with English, great foot, very cozy and ecclectic and artsy. The only thing that really threw us was the party in the private room, when a drunken WWII-style soldier stumbled out with a saloon girl. And no, despite the fact that this was the weekend following Halloween, that had nothing to do with anything. It was apparently the “soldier’s” birthday. Don’t know what was going on there, but I guess I’ve seen weirder in Russia.
Over dinner, we discuss the cat, and it turns out that I am the only one who hates it.
“He’s just nervous!” Kira defends the evil black monstrosity. “And territorial.”
“Yeah, well, Hitler was nervous and territorial when he invaded Poland, too,” I counter. “Doesn’t mean we should all get over Hitler.”
After a great meal, amazing mulled wine, and gorgeous bottle of white courtesy of Cybelle, we decide to head back to our rented flat for the night.
Over dinner, we discuss the cat, and it turns out that I am the only one who hates it.
“He’s just nervous!” Kira defends the evil black monstrosity. “And territorial.”
“Yeah, well, Hitler was nervous and territorial when he invaded Poland, too,” I counter. “Doesn’t mean we should all get over Hitler.”
After a great meal, amazing mulled wine, and gorgeous bottle of white courtesy of Cybelle, we decide to head back to our rented flat for the night.
***
On the St P’s metro Slava takes a minute to point out the gates to the track--they are like elevator doors and you cannot even get near the train until it is in a stopped position. Even then, you can`t walk alongside it-- all you can do is board. Slava tells us that this is to prevent suicides.
“In this city,” he says, “there are a lot of people who commit suicides.” Not surprising. Despite it’s obvious beauty, St P has an average frost-free period of just 135 days per year, and is overcast 165 days of the year. They daylight can las as little as 6 hours per day. Never mind the bone-soaking cold that I already know all-too-well.
We have to change trains to get back to the flat and the cat who we have all by now begun to refer to as “Hitler” (I’m am slowly winning my anti-cat PR campaign). As we descend the escalator, I notice a drunk-looking man staring at us. I am transfixed out of simple shock that people in Russia do not stare--they are generally unfazed and more than happy to ignore each other. He says something to his friends that I’m not sure seems good, and does not back down in his stare. I lower my gaze and follow my friends to the metro platform. As we stand discussing tomorrow’s breakfast, the man approaches.
“Excuse me,” he begins “where are you from?”
Without thinking, and like a moron, I answer “Moscow.” Obviously, he is unsatisfied with this answer, and persists. “Where are you from? What language are you speaking?” I find this an odd question since--hello--you are speaking to us in English. Slava breaks in and tells them we are Canadian (sorry, Cybelle). Immediately, the man`s face changes from tense to very relaxed, his hands gesticulating as he talks with Slava. Then, unceremoniously, he bids us goodnight and goes back to his friends.
“What the Hell was that?” we ask Slava.
“Oh, he thinks we were German, and he say he hates Germans, and so he wanted to fight. But he was glad to hear you were not Germans.”
Um, okay, so let me get this straight--we almost got out asses kicked on a train platform for being German?
Slava says that he’s sure no one would beat up a woman, but that the guy was angry about some outcome of a football (soccer) game, and wanted to tell us how much he hated Germany.
Good to know. I have never in my life felt so defensive of the nation that started two World Wars, but there you go. And this still does not answer my most vexing question--If he thought we were German, why did he speak English to us?
Slava says that he’s sure no one would beat up a woman, but that the guy was angry about some outcome of a football (soccer) game, and wanted to tell us how much he hated Germany.
Good to know. I have never in my life felt so defensive of the nation that started two World Wars, but there you go. And this still does not answer my most vexing question--If he thought we were German, why did he speak English to us?
Now back to the flat, and to little Hitler, for whom I feel refreshed resentment over this anti-German mix-up. But of course this cannot be it for our first night in St Petersburg, because we board the train and--lucky us--German-hater and his drunken friends get in the same car as we do. This is so not over….
To Be Continued…
So What that it Was Seven Degrees Today?
My coat arrived yesterday! My mother shipped my very expensive, very warm winter coat from Canada, and it finally arrived! I have been looking forward this for weeks. Not because I really need it (it’s above zero everyday right now, suckers) but because I have wanted the package itself. This signal from abroad, this concrete evidence of people and places that all too often seem like a dream. Proof. Proof that I am from somewhere. Proof that have roots. It is a strange feeling when you need corroboration that you are who you are, but it was all starting to seem unreal...
As I run to my apartment with the box I cannot stop smiling. The elevator ride to the twelfth floor feels like an eternity. I have never been so excited to see the contents of a package of my own belongings.
I open the box, and extract the full-length coat from it’s month-long confinement. Immediately, I know what I want to do, and I bury my face in the lining and inhale. It smells of all things clean, and calm and comforting. Like that world a thousand of miles away that sometimes I have believing is real. But here it is--verification. A thousand memories flood over my mind and settle in to tranquillize my nerve endings--I picture my mother’s front hall, where the coats are stored. I can picture my mother, my brother and sisters, the comfort of family. I can half-believe that if I lift my head and open my eyes, I’ll smell the cooking from the kitchen, hear the noise of my siblings teasing, see the busy energy that always settles in when my big family gets together. I believe it, and for a very gratifying, nourishing moment, it is true.
It feels like I’ve been in a sauna, like I’ve had three drinks, like I’m lying, once again, in my mothers bed with a cup of tea and my favourite company. I am sedated. And in a city where I am finally starting to feel at home, I remember my first, my favourite home.
That's not to say I've been unhappy here--not at all. In fact, for the first time in a long time I’ve been feeling some peace. Looks like I just needed 15million pushy people smoking, and drinking, and bustling around everyday to calm me down.
But nothing, nothing has felt so great, lately, as this sign of life from accross the ocean.
Yesterday was a very good day.
PS: Mashka and Koshka say thanks for the fantastic box.
As I run to my apartment with the box I cannot stop smiling. The elevator ride to the twelfth floor feels like an eternity. I have never been so excited to see the contents of a package of my own belongings.
I open the box, and extract the full-length coat from it’s month-long confinement. Immediately, I know what I want to do, and I bury my face in the lining and inhale. It smells of all things clean, and calm and comforting. Like that world a thousand of miles away that sometimes I have believing is real. But here it is--verification. A thousand memories flood over my mind and settle in to tranquillize my nerve endings--I picture my mother’s front hall, where the coats are stored. I can picture my mother, my brother and sisters, the comfort of family. I can half-believe that if I lift my head and open my eyes, I’ll smell the cooking from the kitchen, hear the noise of my siblings teasing, see the busy energy that always settles in when my big family gets together. I believe it, and for a very gratifying, nourishing moment, it is true.
It feels like I’ve been in a sauna, like I’ve had three drinks, like I’m lying, once again, in my mothers bed with a cup of tea and my favourite company. I am sedated. And in a city where I am finally starting to feel at home, I remember my first, my favourite home.
That's not to say I've been unhappy here--not at all. In fact, for the first time in a long time I’ve been feeling some peace. Looks like I just needed 15million pushy people smoking, and drinking, and bustling around everyday to calm me down.
But nothing, nothing has felt so great, lately, as this sign of life from accross the ocean.
Yesterday was a very good day.
PS: Mashka and Koshka say thanks for the fantastic box.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
So a Good Part of Northern Moscow Thinks I'm a Slut
I don't have much time today--gotta go home and wait for a coat (long story), but I'll tell you something I learned just now:
Usually, rather than the bus, I take a Marshrutka, which is a van that follows the bus route-weaves in and out of traffic better, really comfy seats, and only costs a buck. But the money collection on these things is a little haphazard, with people just randomly passing their fare up toward the driver.
Every once in awhile, someone will turn to me to collect fare I have already paid. So I say to them "Ya dala," "I gave."
Well Slava just informed me that I have to say "Ya otdala," or "I gave it." Otherwise, the sentence has a similar connotation to "I put out."
So yeah. I've told at least half a dozen people over the last two months that I don't have to pay my cab fare, because I banged the driver. Nice.
You can take the girl out of Transcona...
Usually, rather than the bus, I take a Marshrutka, which is a van that follows the bus route-weaves in and out of traffic better, really comfy seats, and only costs a buck. But the money collection on these things is a little haphazard, with people just randomly passing their fare up toward the driver.
Every once in awhile, someone will turn to me to collect fare I have already paid. So I say to them "Ya dala," "I gave."
Well Slava just informed me that I have to say "Ya otdala," or "I gave it." Otherwise, the sentence has a similar connotation to "I put out."
So yeah. I've told at least half a dozen people over the last two months that I don't have to pay my cab fare, because I banged the driver. Nice.
You can take the girl out of Transcona...
Saturday, November 29, 2008
When Translation Problems...er...Rise
All names and identifying details in this story have been changed at the request of the individual who provided this story to the Expatella.
No Mum, this story is not about me.
So an English-speaking friend of mine, Mary, is dating a Russian man John, who speaks English well enough that they can converse fairly normally. A missing word here, a brief hesitation there, but by and large, they have managed to get past most major communication issues.
Recently, Mary and John began the physical phase of their relationship. One night, after a little too much champagne, it starts getting really hot. Thinking that she is not quite ready for this, Mary tries to slow things down a touch.
"Okay John," she tells him mid-makeout, "That's enough. You need to put on pants."
"Okay," John says, and begins to walk across the room, away from his pants on the floor. Just as Mary is about to ask what the Hell he is doing, he returns to the side of the bed, a box of condoms in hand.
"Here--I have some pants."
"Pants" is a pretty basic, low-level word. Just goes to show you that men the world round are never thinking of slowing things down. He heard "You need to put on..." and his brain shut down completely.
I am certain that the ensuing laughter out of Mary was more than enough to cool things down.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Random Weird Russian Thing
Every once in awhile, I come across things in Russia that inspire me to wonder "WTF were they thinking?"
This is one of those things:
This is one of those things:
It is some kind of...er...statue. On the lawns of a very expensive apartment complex. If you think you can figure out a reason, please, leave it in the comments section.
It Has Nothing to do With Russia
But I am posting it because it is one of the most awesome things I have heard all week.
The Gods are truly just.
If you hate right-wing pundits who don't know when to shut up, click here.
Oh the delicious irony.
Happy Friday indeed...
The Gods are truly just.
If you hate right-wing pundits who don't know when to shut up, click here.
Oh the delicious irony.
Happy Friday indeed...
A Russian Point of View
“I think that Russians, we want all the options so that we can be proud that we bought the best thing,” says Maria, a woman about my age and one of my most advanced students. “When you see a Russian on the metro, maybe, we are always wearing the best of everything we have everyday, to prove to everyone that we are good enough for the best.”
What had started as a discussion of consumer demand in the workplace has evolved into her pondering the differences between materialism in the West versus materialism in her homeland. She lived in the United States for a year and has had the experience to reflect on the issue firsthand. Only having been her two months, I myself had never really considered that there could even be a difference. Consumer-obsessed society is consumer-obsessed society, right? Sure, there is a distinctly different feeling to Russian luxury and must-have items; they seem a little showier, a little more logo-intensive, a little more in the taste of visible wealth. But until now, I had naively chalked this difference up to a divergence in taste and style. But Maria insists that this is not the case--that the entire intention behind Russian consumerism is completely different.
I tell her that consumer pressure is a real social issue back home. I tell her a story about being 12, and begging my parents for a starter jacket (remember those?!) under the intense belief that it would automatically make me cool. It would obviously not have, and I did not get one, but I firmly held the belief all winter that if I could just get my hands on one, my life would be that much better. Even then, I was already succumbing to the power of the logo, and it’s happening even younger a decade and a half later. Style over substance, I assure her, is an issue in Canada.
“Ah, but you see why you did that?” She asks me. “To be like other kids. To fit in. Here, is not the same. We want to stand out. After the collapse of the Soviet regime, where everybody drove the same car, everybody had the same clothes, same apartments, same everything, we very much wanted things that were not all the same. Nobody could stand out before, nobody could feel special. Now we all can, and we buy many things because we can.
I agree that the rampant desire in Moscow for top-of-the-line everything is likely a backlash to the Soviet era, but is it really any different than the mood in the West, I ask sceptically.
“Okay,” she says, preparing an anecdote, “I have a friend from Portugal, and he says that everywhere else in the world, men acquire clothes, cars, these things to impress women, to make themselves seem important in this way. But Russian men, he says, they do it only to impress themselves. So they can look at it and feel that they are worth something.” She pauses, “maybe to prove as well to other men, sometimes. Even the women they date, they buy them expensive gifts of jewellery and clothes so that they will also seem more…important. This sounds horrible I know, but perhaps it is just hard for me to explain in English. Maybe it is not very good.”
But I suddenly understand the unselfconscious flaunting of furs, and diamonds, and iphones that cover the shoulders, and fingers and ears of Muscovites from all walks of life. They are, to the owner, like a pat on the back, a shout of congratulations, a hit of a drug. They provide the self-esteem needed to put on the thick armour in this tough world. They are a (false) form of self-validation. I insist to Maria that this is actually well-explained, and that it is really no better or worse than the validation we seek from others with these same items in the West. But it does explain the unselfconsciousness of Russian displays of wealth. They genuinely don’t seem to care if you notice their stuff.
Do you think this will settle down? I ask her. Maybe that it will stop once the Soviet era is merely a distant memory of the eldest generation.
“No,” she answers firmly. But perhaps it will…how to say…”
“Level off?” I offer.
“Yes, yes,” she says. “There cannot always be so many new products. We want always what is new, but this can’t last forever. Not with economic recession. Recession is like Darwinism, natural selection for products. Only the strong and the necessary will survive.”
And THAT, my friends is the greatest quote I have heard about the economic crisis so far. The most astute and unique observation of the effect on consumer spending habits that I have heard since the market went to Hell. Courtesy of a 25-year-old receptionist at a sports-facility construction company. Fantastic.
What had started as a discussion of consumer demand in the workplace has evolved into her pondering the differences between materialism in the West versus materialism in her homeland. She lived in the United States for a year and has had the experience to reflect on the issue firsthand. Only having been her two months, I myself had never really considered that there could even be a difference. Consumer-obsessed society is consumer-obsessed society, right? Sure, there is a distinctly different feeling to Russian luxury and must-have items; they seem a little showier, a little more logo-intensive, a little more in the taste of visible wealth. But until now, I had naively chalked this difference up to a divergence in taste and style. But Maria insists that this is not the case--that the entire intention behind Russian consumerism is completely different.
I tell her that consumer pressure is a real social issue back home. I tell her a story about being 12, and begging my parents for a starter jacket (remember those?!) under the intense belief that it would automatically make me cool. It would obviously not have, and I did not get one, but I firmly held the belief all winter that if I could just get my hands on one, my life would be that much better. Even then, I was already succumbing to the power of the logo, and it’s happening even younger a decade and a half later. Style over substance, I assure her, is an issue in Canada.
“Ah, but you see why you did that?” She asks me. “To be like other kids. To fit in. Here, is not the same. We want to stand out. After the collapse of the Soviet regime, where everybody drove the same car, everybody had the same clothes, same apartments, same everything, we very much wanted things that were not all the same. Nobody could stand out before, nobody could feel special. Now we all can, and we buy many things because we can.
I agree that the rampant desire in Moscow for top-of-the-line everything is likely a backlash to the Soviet era, but is it really any different than the mood in the West, I ask sceptically.
“Okay,” she says, preparing an anecdote, “I have a friend from Portugal, and he says that everywhere else in the world, men acquire clothes, cars, these things to impress women, to make themselves seem important in this way. But Russian men, he says, they do it only to impress themselves. So they can look at it and feel that they are worth something.” She pauses, “maybe to prove as well to other men, sometimes. Even the women they date, they buy them expensive gifts of jewellery and clothes so that they will also seem more…important. This sounds horrible I know, but perhaps it is just hard for me to explain in English. Maybe it is not very good.”
But I suddenly understand the unselfconscious flaunting of furs, and diamonds, and iphones that cover the shoulders, and fingers and ears of Muscovites from all walks of life. They are, to the owner, like a pat on the back, a shout of congratulations, a hit of a drug. They provide the self-esteem needed to put on the thick armour in this tough world. They are a (false) form of self-validation. I insist to Maria that this is actually well-explained, and that it is really no better or worse than the validation we seek from others with these same items in the West. But it does explain the unselfconsciousness of Russian displays of wealth. They genuinely don’t seem to care if you notice their stuff.
Do you think this will settle down? I ask her. Maybe that it will stop once the Soviet era is merely a distant memory of the eldest generation.
“No,” she answers firmly. But perhaps it will…how to say…”
“Level off?” I offer.
“Yes, yes,” she says. “There cannot always be so many new products. We want always what is new, but this can’t last forever. Not with economic recession. Recession is like Darwinism, natural selection for products. Only the strong and the necessary will survive.”
And THAT, my friends is the greatest quote I have heard about the economic crisis so far. The most astute and unique observation of the effect on consumer spending habits that I have heard since the market went to Hell. Courtesy of a 25-year-old receptionist at a sports-facility construction company. Fantastic.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
I Cannot Tell You How Much This Creeps Me Out
This is a promotional standee in the Mc Donald's at the Tverskaya stop. I had to sit across from it last night.
Here's what you should do if you're ever in the same situation: order a cheeseburger. Because it's very hard to eat a salad when you can't look down at your plate because you know that the instant you take your eyes off that creepy-ass clown he's gonna run over and stab you in the eye with a hockey stick.
Just a little tip from me to you.
An apple pie would be okay too.
The Bible Omits a Few Technical Details About Raising from the Dead
So turns out that the camera is not exactly perfect.
In a glitch that I don't understand at all, it can only take pictures in the dark. Like if the room is completely dark and it has to rely on its own flash, it's good, but if there is light in the room... it looks like this:
In a glitch that I don't understand at all, it can only take pictures in the dark. Like if the room is completely dark and it has to rely on its own flash, it's good, but if there is light in the room... it looks like this:
Kind blurry, little lines on it... so it's not exactly "good as new."
But you know I bet when Jesus came back, even he probably came back with, like, a limp, or a stutter, or he wore socks with his sandals or whatever, and his friends didn't just go out and get a new Jesus. So, yeah. Think about it.
It's still cool that it's back. And hopefully, I can get it fixed. In the meantime, I'll just have to take photos in pitch black rooms. No problem.
This, by the way, it the Christmas tree in the marble lobby at one of my employers' offices...
*sigh* If they'd let me turn off all the lights in the lobby like I tried to, instead of holding me for three hours as a "security measure," I could've gotten the prettiest picture...
Monday, November 24, 2008
I Don't Know How to Feel About This
I'm not sure whether I'm more bothered by the situation itself or by my own (non-)reaction to it...
I get on the metro last night and head to the corner of a car to get a seat. As I sit down, I notice a shoebox sitting on the ground, apparently left behind by some long-gone passenger. No sooner do I see it before I calmly think to myself, "that could be a bomb." I initially chided myself for thinking this so instantly. I do tend to have a very vivid imagination. But the more I consider it, the more odd the old box looks. And it's not necessarily the craziest suspicion to have, considering this, among (too many) other things.
So I mentally weigh whether I am overthinking this shoebox or not. But I am calm. I mean CALM. I honestly put more angst into trying to decide between the McDonalds on Tverskaya or the other McDonalds on Tverskaya. I notice a couple more people eyeing it, but for whatever reason, they decide not to react in any major way beyond a sideways glance. Of course nobody touches it either...
As I am thinking about it an intellectual-looking gentleman in his sixties, across the aisle shifts his gaze from his newspaper to the box on the floor ever so slightly. He, too, appears to be pondering it, his eyes moving several times from his newspaper, to the box, and then back again. Finally he stands, and calmly asks everyone nearby whether this box belongs to them. We all answer negatively and, back straight, newspaper tucked under his arm, he strides calmly to the radio on the otherside of the car to report his find, presumably so the militsiya at the next station can take a look.
I decide to exit the train at this station, as does another couple sitting near us, while the older man waits on the train. As I stand in Mayakovskaya, waiting the two minute interval for the next set of cars, I realise that I still feel nothing but a little bit of hunger and sore feet.
I wonder, did I really believe that there could be a problem after all? I mean, I must have, because I got off the train, didn't I? At the same time, I never once debated mentioning it to someone. Okay, I didn't know about the radios, but even if I had... It seemed to much like panic. Like paranoia. Like the kind of fear you can't really afford to feel at every opportunity. Or to spring onto others unnecessarily.
I have no idea how to feel about this. But I still don't feel nervous.
Of course that in itself is what is unnerving.
I get on the metro last night and head to the corner of a car to get a seat. As I sit down, I notice a shoebox sitting on the ground, apparently left behind by some long-gone passenger. No sooner do I see it before I calmly think to myself, "that could be a bomb." I initially chided myself for thinking this so instantly. I do tend to have a very vivid imagination. But the more I consider it, the more odd the old box looks. And it's not necessarily the craziest suspicion to have, considering this, among (too many) other things.
So I mentally weigh whether I am overthinking this shoebox or not. But I am calm. I mean CALM. I honestly put more angst into trying to decide between the McDonalds on Tverskaya or the other McDonalds on Tverskaya. I notice a couple more people eyeing it, but for whatever reason, they decide not to react in any major way beyond a sideways glance. Of course nobody touches it either...
As I am thinking about it an intellectual-looking gentleman in his sixties, across the aisle shifts his gaze from his newspaper to the box on the floor ever so slightly. He, too, appears to be pondering it, his eyes moving several times from his newspaper, to the box, and then back again. Finally he stands, and calmly asks everyone nearby whether this box belongs to them. We all answer negatively and, back straight, newspaper tucked under his arm, he strides calmly to the radio on the otherside of the car to report his find, presumably so the militsiya at the next station can take a look.
I decide to exit the train at this station, as does another couple sitting near us, while the older man waits on the train. As I stand in Mayakovskaya, waiting the two minute interval for the next set of cars, I realise that I still feel nothing but a little bit of hunger and sore feet.
I wonder, did I really believe that there could be a problem after all? I mean, I must have, because I got off the train, didn't I? At the same time, I never once debated mentioning it to someone. Okay, I didn't know about the radios, but even if I had... It seemed to much like panic. Like paranoia. Like the kind of fear you can't really afford to feel at every opportunity. Or to spring onto others unnecessarily.
I have no idea how to feel about this. But I still don't feel nervous.
Of course that in itself is what is unnerving.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Happy Birthday Katie!
Today I have to give a shout out to my little sister Katie, who turns 25 today.
In honour of the date, I'll share a little Katie story with you...
Growing up, Katherine and I shared a room. Of course, when it was time to go to bed, we'd often keep each other up most of the night, giggling. One night, when she was maybe nine, we were particularly giggly. My dad must've come in the room three times to tell us to keep it down. But Katherine--known in our family for her hyperactivity--just could not settle down. Even after all the warnings, she was still trying to talk to me. But my dad has had it, and from the hallway he yells:
"Katherine! That's enough! Go to sleep!"
"I AM asleep!" She yells back in a moment of particular brilliance. My father was so dumbfounded by this answer, I think he just gave up trying.
So today we celebrate this human being going twenty five years without accidentally drinking cleaning fluid or trying to bring a blowdryer into the shower.
Aw, I kid, Katie--you're very smart.
I love you! Happy birthday Peanut!
In honour of the date, I'll share a little Katie story with you...
Growing up, Katherine and I shared a room. Of course, when it was time to go to bed, we'd often keep each other up most of the night, giggling. One night, when she was maybe nine, we were particularly giggly. My dad must've come in the room three times to tell us to keep it down. But Katherine--known in our family for her hyperactivity--just could not settle down. Even after all the warnings, she was still trying to talk to me. But my dad has had it, and from the hallway he yells:
"Katherine! That's enough! Go to sleep!"
"I AM asleep!" She yells back in a moment of particular brilliance. My father was so dumbfounded by this answer, I think he just gave up trying.
So today we celebrate this human being going twenty five years without accidentally drinking cleaning fluid or trying to bring a blowdryer into the shower.
Aw, I kid, Katie--you're very smart.
I love you! Happy birthday Peanut!
For you, A Russian Birthday Song.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Ironically, I Have No Picture to Go With This Post
My camera is actually working.
You see, I dropped it two weeks ago, and then the lens wouldn't retract, no matter what I tried, and I figured that that was the end of the camera. I laid it to rest in a drawer, resigned to the fact that I would have to shell out for a new one, which I had planned to do today.
This morning, as I was leaving my house, I was going through that drawer looking for a memory stick, and decided to turn it on for no reason at all. And the lens retracted. It is back to new. Actually, it is better than new, because this camera has the ability to heal itself.
It's like that time that bible guy was all "Aw, man, I'm totally dead," and his friends were all "Oh, no way! This sucks!," but then three or four days later he was all "Oh dudes, I totally punk'd you guys! I am so not dead!" and everyone was totes happy and stuff.
This is just like that. I am so happy, and plan to commemerate this day yearly with eggs and rabbits.
And fireworks. I like fireworks.
You see, I dropped it two weeks ago, and then the lens wouldn't retract, no matter what I tried, and I figured that that was the end of the camera. I laid it to rest in a drawer, resigned to the fact that I would have to shell out for a new one, which I had planned to do today.
This morning, as I was leaving my house, I was going through that drawer looking for a memory stick, and decided to turn it on for no reason at all. And the lens retracted. It is back to new. Actually, it is better than new, because this camera has the ability to heal itself.
It's like that time that bible guy was all "Aw, man, I'm totally dead," and his friends were all "Oh, no way! This sucks!," but then three or four days later he was all "Oh dudes, I totally punk'd you guys! I am so not dead!" and everyone was totes happy and stuff.
This is just like that. I am so happy, and plan to commemerate this day yearly with eggs and rabbits.
And fireworks. I like fireworks.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Five Minutes in Moscow
Like so many children in Moscow, this boy is carrying a balloon. He guides it into the metro, the airy yellow mass bobbing above the heads of serious commuters, and takes a seat with his mother next to the door. Wave after wave of stony-faced Muscovites enters the car. There must be at least seventy five people in here. The train starts up again, rocking along to the deafening roar of the tracks, lulling its human cargo into an efficient daze in which we all stare at nothing and think our own private thoughts. Alone in the crowd, silent in the noise, virtually comatose for the duration of our transit.
*BANG!*
With a start, seventy-five previously over-composed adults jerk upright, attention snapping toward any sound capable of rising above the mechanical roar of the train.
The noise is followed by a startled silence, unexpectedly broken by a small giggle. The boy by the door is staring at the faces, amused that his now-broken balloon has caused such a mass reaction. His giggle intensifies as we all identify him as the origin of the commotion. His mother tries to admonish him for scaring people, but she’s having a hard time--his laughter is infectious. We, too, smile conspiratorially at the boy, sharing his joke, relieved that the noise was nothing more than a silly accident. At first, the smiles catch on to just the few of us around him. But then it spreads, as we each silently succumb to the complete silliness of this moment in the most banal and routine of settings. As the giggles spread outward like ripples in a pond, and a genuine laugh begins in the centre as the little boy can no longer contain himself. Neither can we. It is full fledged laughter now, and this too spreads enough that by the next stop, two thirds of the car is in stitches.
We exit at our stops, refreshed by our encounter but not entirely surprised to have found such lightheartedness behind the hard exteriors of other Muscovites. If we were all really that thick-skinned, no one would live here. There would be no reason.
Okay: Two Canadians, an American and a Russian Walk into StPetersburg (pt.1)
We board the train for St Petersburg departing Moscow at 9:30 am. I have never taken a train before and have no idea what to expect. The ride is nine hours, and I’d gotten only five hours of sleep the night before so all I am hoping for is a bed. Kira, Cybelle (from Kansas City), Slava (from the office), and I board the train and find out compartments. Four pull down beds--jackpot. We open them, lay down the mattresses and sheets, and survey our handiwork--feels like we’re spending the next nine hours at summer camp. But it’s comfy enough, and we take off our shoes and settle in.
The train has not even pulled out of the station when Slava begins to spread a rather impressive selection of groceries on the table between the bunks: yogurt, cheese, bread, ham, apples, chocolates, tea bags, and instant coffee.
“Eat, eat. Everyone should eat something.” He tells us gesturing at the food.
It’s a little early for us, and Slava seems frustrated by our lack of appetite. I have flashbacks of car trips of my childhood, my mother insisting that everyone eat the fruit she brought “Do you want an apple A pear? A plum?” She’d ask approximately every twenty minutes, “We have to eat it, before we get over the border! Have some fruit!” She’s insist, and there would be four kids trying to choke down their ration of two pieces of produce before arrival in Grand Forks, which was less than two hours away from the house. To this day, I don’t understand why we even brought it; I suspect that it may have just been her trick to get us to eat fruit because as a child I was positive that something horrible would happen at the border if we were caught smuggling the banana I did not eat. Well played, Mum.
Or maybe it’s just something in her Slavic blood, because here is Slava, insisting on the same nutritious intake before we’ve even left the city.
I opt instead for a little Anna Karenina and a nap before my lunch. And for the hour of day to be at least in the double digits.
I opt instead for a little Anna Karenina and a nap before my lunch. And for the hour of day to be at least in the double digits.
***
I wake up with difficulty. The gentle rocking of the train, and the rhythmic sound of the tracks beneath us is amazingly soothing, and it‘s already 2pm. Slava and Cybelle are on the lower bunks chatting and eating sandwiches. I lower myself with a great difficulty, but finally, finally have found a moment when all my yoga has come to my aid. We spend the next several hours drinking tea, eating, and trading Slava English lessons for Russian lessons. We also spend a great deal of time exercising our bladder control, since the swaying, grungy squat-toilet is not a place we want to spend much time in. Hours and kilometres of Russian countryside roll by--forest after forest, town after town. It is so soothing, and despite the close quarters, a nice reprieve from Moscow’s packed streets and chaos.
Slava, at our request, tells us some stories about Baba Yaga, and I think to myself that if we put a flashlight under his chin, our little summer-camp scenario would finally be complete.
One more little nap in the rocking womb of the train car, and it’s tine to wake--we’re in St Pete’s!
***
I step off the train and am immediately hit by one thought--cold. It is so much colder in St Petersburg than it is in Moscow. I quick look at the digital read on the platform tells me that it’s actually hovering around zero, but it feels much worse than that. It is a city built on rivers, so the dampness and the wind make for a completely different feeling. A bad one. This is not helped at all by the fact that it is raining.
We head for the subway station and wait to buy tickets. Stuck in the long line (presumably because the train emptied) Slava leans over and tells us to watch out purses. “People will steal your money here,” he warns us. “Be careful.” I wonder if anyone had ever pointed out to him that he lives in Moscow, and that there are, indeed, pickpockets in the worlds fifteenth largest city. But he insists that pickpockets are rampant here. As I secure my purse for his sake, I realise that I cannot find my passport. Frantic that I lost it on the train, Kira and I squat in the middle of the St Pete’s metro station, and methodically go through my purse and luggage compartments one by one. It is found after way too much panic.
We board the metro and go off in search of the private flat we rented for the weekend.
***
After a 25 minute walk in the rain, wind, and pitch black night, we arrive at the apartment building. “Please, at least say zdrasvutye, to the woman” Slava pleads, “You might not be Russian, but she should not think that you are rude.“ We debate saying it in unison so that she thinks we’re crazy, but a reproachful look from Slava reminds us that St Petersburg is totally booked for the long weekend and we can’t afford to unnerve anybody. A young woman of about five feet lets us into the building at to the elevator. Two months ago, I’d have called the place “dodgy,” but now I’d say it’s “Russian.” Or as the Russians call it, “sovietsky” (Soviet era). We enter a tiny elevator, all five of us and our luggage, and emerge in a barely larger hallway. There are four flats on this floor, and if one door is totally open, the neighbour’s door cannot open at all. Even by sovietsky standards, this gets a giggle out of me.
Turns out that the woman lives in the flat with her two very young sons who are extremely cute. They are going to Paris for the weekend, they tell us, and will be back on Monday at noon to collect the key. Please feed the cat.
Umm--cat?
We begin to unpack in the small, neat, if kinda funky-smelling apartment. As I go through my luggage, I notice that my camera battery charger is rolled in a neat bundle right where I left it last--on the bed back in Moscow. Kira promises to take pictures of whatever I want with her camera. I go to change my clothes for dinner slightly appeased as Kira and Cybelle go in search of the elusive cat. From the bedroom, I am griping about the lost opportunities to take pictures of whatever I want in one of the most picturesque cities in the world.
“I mean, really,” I grumble as I open the door, “Nothing else could have effed up sightseeing in St Petes more.” And with these poorly chosen words, a lightening quick, massive black cat attacks my foot and does not let go. I manage to kick it off, but he has already drawn blood, and earned my hate for the rest of the trip. An infected foot may indeed be worse for sightseeing than a dead camera battery. Before dinner, I quickly look up the Russian word for “tetnus.” I will summarily spend the rest of the weekend missing my hand-sized kittens and standing on the bed and on chairs in this flat, brandishing a stick that dear Kira found to ease my mind and ensure my safety.
But we are not here to spend the weekend in an apartment with a giant (evil, mean-spirited, violent) cat. We have St Petersburg to see…
It Happens to All the Greats
I am having, hands down, the worst case of writers’ block lately. I can’t write a thing these days. Emails, creative writing, this blog… someone asked me to sign a cheque the other day and I nearly had a nervous breakdown. This is hard, so I’m going to work my way up. Before I can get to the creative writing, I’ll work on some letters home. And before those, this blog. It took me several greeting cards and half a shopping list to get this far, so be patient with me.
I’ll put up the St Petersburg weekend recap in installments, and hopefully get over it soon.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to freak out about what kind of graffitti to write in the bathroom.” “Larissa was here”? No wait--should it be “wuz here?” Dammit--I think I know what drove Fitzgerald to the bottle…
I’ll put up the St Petersburg weekend recap in installments, and hopefully get over it soon.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to freak out about what kind of graffitti to write in the bathroom.” “Larissa was here”? No wait--should it be “wuz here?” Dammit--I think I know what drove Fitzgerald to the bottle…
Friday, November 14, 2008
Question: What is the Funniest Thing in the World?
Answer: A kitten having sneezing fits.
Particularly when said kitten is still small enough for her tiny sneezes to blow her backward.
Little Miss Mashka started sneezing yesterday, and it got to the point where she woke me up last night with a sneezing fit (she was sleeping next to my neck.) Then, when we woke up, her left eye was glued shut (ew). And while a sneezing and snotty kitten is surprisingly cute, I'm pretty worried. I know upper respiratory infections can be very bad for little cats, so I'll be taking her to the vet. Vets here are open 24hours and surprisingly inexpensive. We would know, because Koshka, as it turns out, had a parasite, a fact we discovered when she vomited all over Kira's laundry. Then the doormat. Then on the laundry again. Poor thing needs medicine about four times a day.
And now the other one.
It occurs to me that our kittens are like that annoying, sickly, snot-nosy little weenie kid from elementary school. You know the one I mean. He was always out first in dodgeball and peed himself on the fieldtrip to Lower Fort Garry? There was one in every class.
There are two in our apartment.
I'm actually afraid to take them out, for fear the other, cooler cats steal their Whiskas and do that "Why you hitting yourself?" thing. At which point Koshka will go hide in a cupboard, and Mashka will stand on top of my left foot and cry until I pick her up.
Little Miss Mashka started sneezing yesterday, and it got to the point where she woke me up last night with a sneezing fit (she was sleeping next to my neck.) Then, when we woke up, her left eye was glued shut (ew). And while a sneezing and snotty kitten is surprisingly cute, I'm pretty worried. I know upper respiratory infections can be very bad for little cats, so I'll be taking her to the vet. Vets here are open 24hours and surprisingly inexpensive. We would know, because Koshka, as it turns out, had a parasite, a fact we discovered when she vomited all over Kira's laundry. Then the doormat. Then on the laundry again. Poor thing needs medicine about four times a day.
And now the other one.
It occurs to me that our kittens are like that annoying, sickly, snot-nosy little weenie kid from elementary school. You know the one I mean. He was always out first in dodgeball and peed himself on the fieldtrip to Lower Fort Garry? There was one in every class.
There are two in our apartment.
I'm actually afraid to take them out, for fear the other, cooler cats steal their Whiskas and do that "Why you hitting yourself?" thing. At which point Koshka will go hide in a cupboard, and Mashka will stand on top of my left foot and cry until I pick her up.
*sigh*
I'll keep you posted. In the meantime, feel soothed by the picture of me and Mashka pretending to be mad at each other for the camera. Haha! Aren't we hilarious?
Five Minutes in Moscow
5:30 pm--
I’m running through the station courtyard to catch the train to downtown. The middle-aged women from early this morning, along with their heaps of blouses and sweaters, are gone now. In their place stand magazine and newspaper racks boasting throwaway-publications on every imaginable topic.
As I pass through the entrance to the metro, I notice a woman who by my estimates must be a hundred years old. She is squeaky clean, bundled in quilted layers for the winter, despite the fact that it is an unseasonable fifteen degrees outside.
Reaching into a pocket filled with kopeks, I blindly drop some into her plastic cup. With the outdated currency system, this handful of coins is nearly worthless in all value except sentimental. What she could ever buy with them? They can provide little more than sympathy. Our worthless circles of metal do nothing but say “I understand. Poor you. Life is hard. I sympathise.” But in a country where life does seem harder, and compassion just a little rarer, these condolences are valuable. This is Russia: doleful and lamenting and tired of hardship. As necessary to getting though the rough days as food or water, these sentiments are something of a currency...
She straightens her scarf and rocks slightly. I’m through the turnstile before we even have a chance to look at one another.
I’m running through the station courtyard to catch the train to downtown. The middle-aged women from early this morning, along with their heaps of blouses and sweaters, are gone now. In their place stand magazine and newspaper racks boasting throwaway-publications on every imaginable topic.
As I pass through the entrance to the metro, I notice a woman who by my estimates must be a hundred years old. She is squeaky clean, bundled in quilted layers for the winter, despite the fact that it is an unseasonable fifteen degrees outside.
Reaching into a pocket filled with kopeks, I blindly drop some into her plastic cup. With the outdated currency system, this handful of coins is nearly worthless in all value except sentimental. What she could ever buy with them? They can provide little more than sympathy. Our worthless circles of metal do nothing but say “I understand. Poor you. Life is hard. I sympathise.” But in a country where life does seem harder, and compassion just a little rarer, these condolences are valuable. This is Russia: doleful and lamenting and tired of hardship. As necessary to getting though the rough days as food or water, these sentiments are something of a currency...
She straightens her scarf and rocks slightly. I’m through the turnstile before we even have a chance to look at one another.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
I'll be Posting Again ASAP
I've had some concerned inquiries as to where I've been for the past week. The answer is:
St Petersburg for four days, recovering from absinthe for one day, working a new schedule for one day.
Thanks much for your concerns, all, but I am totally fine (minus that absinthe thing).
I'll be back to it as of tomorrow. In the meantime, why don't you just reread some of my old posts? My writing is just the gift that keeps on giving...
St Petersburg for four days, recovering from absinthe for one day, working a new schedule for one day.
Thanks much for your concerns, all, but I am totally fine (minus that absinthe thing).
I'll be back to it as of tomorrow. In the meantime, why don't you just reread some of my old posts? My writing is just the gift that keeps on giving...
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